am I old enough for this?

Our first non-traveling weekend was mild at best. I think we are still recovering from the last three months. Friday – our first night out – we talked about our initial trip here. It was less than a year ago! It feels like we have been preparing for this so much longer than nine months. [is this move our baby? not funny? ok.] We arrived home April 4, 2013 and the very next day we started preparing the house to sell. It went on the market by July and sold in 30 days! April to July was bananas – Mick worked 8 hour days only to come home and work more. We painted all our interior doors, staged the house, trimmed out the shoe molding, created a patio under our deck, redirected drainage, miscellaneous repairs….are you asleep yet? All this to say, as soon as we were done, the house went on the market and we spent our days keeping it clean, stressing over showings…etc. Suddenly it sold and we found ourselves packed up and moving in with family.  It seems this last year we have been perpetually exhausted. Tired. Emotionally drained. I found my personality shrunk and I could barely muster full sentences. I would often look at Mick and mutter – I’m not old enough for this.

We are finding it difficult to snap out of survival mode – it somehow feels safer, more familiar, than letting go and experiencing all that we’ve hoped for.  We started the weekend meeting with our realtor and discussing the future. Afterwards we went on a 3 mile hike – it was the perfect thing to clear our heads – we have so many more decisions ahead of us – we need to give ourselves a break, more than one actually. After our hike we drove around oo’ing and ahh’ing over our amazing new home. It truly is a stunning. Sunday we left the house once to pick up snacks and movies…and that’s all she wrote. [baby steps, right?]

Mineral Ridge – view from our hike…

Today we have 71 listings sitting in our inbox. Ha. So happy I’m not doing this alone! I still don’t feel old enough to make decisions like buying ten acres, or managing a mini homestead but I guess I will get there.

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